Everyone has been through so much in relationships and now, most times, when we meet someone, we are only meeting a phantom of that person. People are rarely showing up fully in relationships today. And thinking about it, I have been quite selfish myself in my relationships with these men…in wanting them to Love me in return when in actuality I should of just healed what hurt and kept what I needed out of it. No its not being unfair to myself, I always get what I need as far as Love and attempting to get it from someone who is unable to Love is a bit unfair. Even if they see themselves happily as players and womanizers, its still hurt speaking. *humph* Hindsight is 20/20.

This thought reminds me that I have been here before…

I am charged with caring for a stray cat that found it’s way to me. I know its been through hell, I could feel it, and it found its way to my door step. When I’d reach out to touch him, initially, he’d hiss at me…ears set back ready to fight. Did I get mad at the cat, call it names for what it’s been through? Did I tell it to get the hell up out of my life? No, I know it had come to me for a reason so I gave it what it needed and loved that cat unconditionally. I didn’t put demands on it, I didn’t ask it for not one thing. I did as the Creator charged me to do. Take Care….whooooa feeling the Spirit here….Take Care of Your Loved One….Take Care of Yourself. So, I Loved that cat, I fed it best I could and just the other day he allowed me to touch him, although it took almost an entire year, he finally let me in.

I showed so much Love and understanding to this cat and so many times I didn’t show it to my own brother. All the compassion, the patience I showed this kitten, I revoked…I REFUSED it from my brother. So many times, I tried to meet his fury. I tried to match his wits. I knew it was only pain speaking, I knew that he had come to me to heal. I was unable to see past my own hurts, my own pains in order to see GOD in my brother. How could I when I had been serving his demigod for as long as I could remember? And the sad part about it? How often do we yell at, abuse and cast out our dogs? smh Lord I hope somebody hear me today.

I am at your feet my beautiful brother, I ask your forgiveness, my soul asks for your forgiveness. I can no longer serve a god that severs my connection with you.

Asherah Amyas, Remember to Love <3

Releasing Demigods #1: “Men are Dogs”

At one point in almost every woman's life, we either have said or heard the words spoken..."Men are Dogs". If we are uttering these words, giving testimony as we shake our heads up and down, humming "Mmmmmmm Hmmmmm" as we hear our  sisters say these words so vehemently, are we not giving energy to and creating the VERY thing we Continue Reading →