I got my old life back, no longer needing to struggle for the basic things but still I feel alone, because in a way I wish everything would go back to being the way it was but it’s not meant to be, it never was. I know that I’m just scared of losing myself and everything I have, and am…again and I want what’s safe (I’m lol because I’m in the ugly cry right now and my nose is so stopped up if I close my mouth I’d suffocate myself lol ugh Asherah Amyas)

I don’t know what was real what was fake, all I have is “June” and lord knows that’s a ways away. All I can do is prepare and be ready to just meld.

Continuing on…