Last night, I came so close to contacting Tank. No plans on reconciling but just to let him know how I felt about all of this. Tank however is very clever with his words and there is a good chance I would of ended up in an exchange of words that lasted well past the realm of sanity.I came so close but I did not reach out to him, not even for a business messages and this morning I get paid a fairly large retainer from one of my clients. So I get my Mac back and now I am getting my finances back in order so that I don’t have to stress, all because I walked away from the madness of the relationships I had been attracting. And as I login to journal this I see that I am at 555 posts. I googled the angel number meaning and behold:

555 means you’re going through a major life change. It can also signal that this big change is coming up ahead, so prepare for it now. 555 can also be a validation that the change you’re contemplating is the best direction for you to take.

Angel Number 555 is a message from your angels that it is time to let go of the ‘old’ that is no longer positively serving you. Trust that they will be replaced with ‘better’. Release old doubts, fears and perceived obstacles, and if feeling any fears or confusion, ask for support and guidance from your angels. Know that your angels are with you, always.

And with that I know Im on the right path again. I also wanted to write about a dream I had last night as well, I have been dreaming alot of late.

I had a dream that I was living my current life as I have been and then all of a sudden I was faced with a memory of a child that I had, a little boy that I had given birth to earlier in my teenage years that I had forgotten about. He is a little boy mixed, Asian and of course black, and he was so filled with joy. He had been looking for me but didn’t seem mad at me at all that I had left him…that I had forgotten about him. His father had been caring for him the entire time in my absence. When I woke up, I realized this wasn’t the first time I had a dream of having a child, little boy mixed, and when I had this dream last night it was like deja vu to realize that all these years he had been growing in my subconscious and that I could have another dream about him being a toddler now and that I had abandoned him.

Strange dream however perhaps this lets me know I am on the same path on which this spirit will play a part. Stay tuned.